Little Things

This week is being so wonderful! Last week i was a little bit down in the dumps (idk why) but saturday was such a great day! The holiday started with an awesome halloween/bday party but friday was awful, and i got even worse. As I said, I didn’t do ENEM – The irresponsible girl forgot to pay the exam. Luckily, Lorena had also forget so saturday morning we went for a walk (i guess we took more than one hour) which is absolutely relaxing, specially in a cool day  and with the beach right by your side (no irony). Afterwards we had to try our experiment for the science fair. Great plan, until we got to the store and find out it was closed. However, every cloud has its silver lining; we managed to deal with it and we found another way of doing what needed to be done. it was absolutely entertaining, and when it worked we threw our hands to the hair, screamed, jumped and hold each other – such a funny scene specially because we did exactly the same thing. After that she went home and, as my parents were out and i was  with my grandma, i decided not to go out. Best choice ever!!! I talked with Gaby and Joa untill very late and MAANNNNN, they rock!!!!! I had so much fun and they made my day…actually they made my week!! Gaby is crazy, but she is sweet and we have the best convos ever!!! I love her so much!!!!!! Gaby, no olvides, eres mi rosa (recuerdas?). Sunday i did actually nothing, just talked with Joa about university and stuff but it was great! So, after talking to Gaby I knew nothing could push me down, not even the essay i had for monday, either the test in Tuesday or the two presentations i had today (Wednesday). Even if i had done/prepared for nothing of these yet. Monday i missed classes in the afternoon and did my essay as well as studied for the UN Simulation I’ll have this friday. Tuesday i studied a little bit for the test and i think i did great. I had english classes after school and 8pm my science group gather to finish the work. At 11pm we were done and not sure if we would work it out so i just concentrated in my math work until falling asleep over my computer.

As they say, it never rains but it pours. By the time we were working on the project the weather completely changing and it started raining so much for so long that when i woke up today my city was under water. Even though I manage to get to school, and my science group as well and for what people told me we did great in the presentation. One person from my math group missed, but in the end we got the whole grade. And, last but not least, I GOT MY FIRST DEVELOPED ANALOG FILM TODAY!!!! For those who don’t know I love photography and just recently I bought a Diana, from Lomography!!! I’m so excited with my first analog pictures; 8 out of 12, i guess it’s good!!! I usually go home for lunch but the car couldn’t make it to the school to get me and I really didn’t mind. Thankfully it stopped raining and the sun came out, shining bright (27 degrees!!!) and the water came down and i was able to get home after school. I thought it couldn’t get any better but my friend called me so we talked for more than one hour about everything, like senior year, university and music!

So I came here just to say for you guys to value the little happy things in your life and don’t let the worries or some little problems bring you down. Be around people who see and value who you are, and don’t forget to tell your friends how much you mean to them. Listen to your friends, but also let yourself be listened by them. A good friendship consists in exchanges; you give and you receive. When having some problem, telling how you feel about it instead of blaming the other it’s the better way to get through it. After all, we all have flaws but we should remember our friends about their qualities rather pointing them their flaws. Helping friends improve, but doing that by opening their eyes for themselves (sometimes showing their flaws, but not making them feel guilty). That’s pretty much what I had to say, make people around you feel special because you don’t know how much time you have left with them. However, never forget to be surrounded by people who remind you always of how great you are.

So I guess this blog is kinda messy but I have to study for the UN Simulation (friday and saturday) and do my Official Position Document…I’m Syria in the security council (theme: conflict in syria) so i really need to be prepared, guess i’ll only write again in sunday because of that!! Until then, you can now check my instagram online by clicking here! Have a good week/weekend!!!

See you!

“Life is not too hard, we are too soft”

I recently been to New York and visited the 9/11 memorial. It amazes me how fast the reconstructed it. Last year it wasn’t half of what it is today. When rebuilding it, one of the biggest concerns was about security. Nobody wants to see a tragedy like that again; the two main towers are almost unbreakable for what they say. Basically, if other airplane try to crashed the whole thing won’t collapse, it has a stronger structure.

One of the good things we can take from tragedies is strength and the opportunity to do things better. When Japan was bombed, and recently, destroyed by earthquakes and tsunamis Japanese people rebuild everything. Newer and better cities. I strongly disagree with Marinetti’s ideas, but from this point of view futurists doesn’t sound as mad.

As always, I’m wandering around before talking about what this is really about.

I have this (dis)ability of changing the way the text goes; long sentences and random topics, basically is as confusing as my own thoughts.

Back to the main theme, I have one friend and I love talking to him. I trust him; he listens and advice me.  We are always talking, and most of times I end up crying. And when I cry, I sob.  This friend pushes me until my edge, and I breakdown. Some other people, when see me crying, panic as if  he was torturing me or something. Not at all.

The nice thing about this talks is that, as I said, I breakdown. The friend leave me in ruins, and I have to rebuilt everything about me and my vision of life. And in this moments I have the opportunity to build me over a stronger estructure; less chances to be collapsed. So everytime we talk I grow stronger, he knows that. I have to admit the things I listen to aren’t always pleasing. They are things that my other friends try to hide. If I say , for example, “my grades are bad” people are try to say I’ll get better, it was bad luck…He says” too bad, but you didn’t study, you deserve it. (he sounds  mean but he really isn’t. The mean people are the ones who hide reality from me) What I mean is that he tells me the truth, and this means SO much for me. Living a life of white lies is living a life of lies.

I suffer in some of these talks, but it opens my eyes. Plato’s “Allegory of the Cave” shows how hard it is to look at the world as it really is. At first the light hurt, the truth too; but after a while you get used. I cry, and is painful, but I know they keep me from worse things, greater pains and much more tears. It’s better to suffer a little bit now and be prepared for tomorrow. Hope the best, expect  (and be ready for) the worse.

I’m 16 and life until now is basically school and everything around it. Life is not school. Life is not as easy. I’m sure that my big deals today will seem to be stupid years ahead.

One of my teachers usually repeats to me “Life is not to hard, we are too soft”. My friend is trying to get me strong so life will be softer. We can’t keep away from reality forever. We need to get tougher to not breakdown in moments we just can’t afford to collapse and fall. Sometimes you are the one who is keeping lot’s of people from collapsing, you fall they fall. You have to be strong for you and for them.

I too decided to push people until their edges. I’ve been hard with some of my friends, and they (so far) didn’t get mad. All I’ve been listening to is thank you. I fell is my responsibility to help my friends improve their lives. It’s hard but worth it.

It’s better to get ready for the planes before they come and crash. It is better to get ready for the tsunamis before they come and wash everything out. It is better to be ready for earthquakes before your world tumbles and fall apart before you even have time to notice it. It is better to reconstruct while you are stable, nothing to lose or prove, a long road before our eyes, a dream in your mind, and a friend by your side.

Shine bright like a diamond

This damn song, with predictable lyrics and bad production, still it is sticky. It has been playing in my head yesterday all day, with some space for coldplay and taylor’s new song, when I was not reading “One day” by David Nicholls (which is should say is really good, maybe I’ll write something about it). Whatever, I’m wandering around so let’s go straight ahead.

Diamonds. They have this mystical thing, a diamond ring and you-know-what-else. Chemistry teachers, at least mine, keep us remembering how the arrangement of molecules make difference because that’s what’s  make graphite being  graphite and not diamond. It’s the “hardest” (im not sure which word to use) material, used to cut marble, but still it means power, love… It amazes me how something can be so though and so beautiful

A diamond is formed with a combination of pressure, and temperature… it passes thru a lot of thing to become a rough diamond, and then it has to be polish; only then it can shine as bright.

I believe, in some ways, people are like diamonds. Only some of then, because it takes special conditions to be a diamond and not a graphite, as I said. And some people are born to shine so much, but they don’t even realize, or never shine as much as they can because they are rough diamonds.

People have to be polished to achieve their best.  My concept of friendship includes polishing your friends. It’s really hard, but when you love someone it’s impossible not wanting to see this person shining, showing his or her best. It’s not about changing, is about polishing. It is not easy, but afterwards you get your life full of precious jewels.

Character can’t be changed, but personality can. It’s been a while I took a time for myself, thinking of me in different ways. I know I’m different. People also said so. And they said I’m better. I know I still have a lot to improve, but I keep in mind to never change who I really am. And I hope someday I can shine bright like a diamond, or almost. One thing I’m sure; right now I’m stronger, and maybe someday I’ll won’t get emotional scars anymore.